Adjusting
I took a look-back trip the other day to see the high school I attended when I left home at fourteen. It was a nice trip as previously reported, but unfortunately it opened the window for more looking back. For several early mornings, I found myself in re-live mode, re-examining old life decisions. Not a profitable exercise. Eventually, I broke free, but it was semi-exhausting.
I much prefer living for today and thinking about tomorrow although I recently have been bothered with the idea that my tomorrows, due to my age, may be severely limited. But I think that’s mostly a mind trick I need to overcome and generally speaking I’ve had fair success over the course of my life of doing that. Adjusting my mindset to fit the circumstances in which I find myself.
Basically, I think it’s all about believing you have something to live for, or maybe it’s as simple as finding the adventure in the current circumstances. There seem to be a lot of small pleasures in my life. My gardens being one of them, and my music, and my friends, both old and new being some of the others. Besides, when the end comes, that will be it. The book will close after the last page, and the story will be written. So, the end is really the least important thing, it’s what comes before it that matters.